Yes! I am a Shopaholic

It has been 48 days that i haven't written.Though the urge to write something kept emerging again and again but couldn't find a single inspiration! Also, i had decided that i will start a new post the day i get my new laptop, so tadaaa..i got a new laptop!! The excitement i have right now, typing on the new smooth black keyboard is inexplicable. My sweet and kind husband ordered it for me and without even asking he selected the colour RED ( Awwww..he knows me so well!)

Well the thing i want to talk about is the amount of happiness i get when i buy something new. Be it clothes, shoes, cosmetics or even grocery! I agree that every woman is born with the shopping virus in them but there are higher levels of this syndrome which ultimately leads one to become a compulsive shopper. Yes, its true iam a Shopaholic and which is why i could see myself in Rebecca Bloomwood, the main protagonist of the movie 'Confessions of a Shopaholic'. The movie excellently shows how so many people like us are suffering from Shopaholism( if i may call it so!) and spend all our money on all those attractive things kept on store shelves.

From past 3 weekends all i have been doing is visiting different malls and buying new stuff. In the movie Rebecca says 'when i shop everything around me seems right and happy' and that is exactly how i feel when i am shopping. And specially in United States  of America, none can save themselves from spending their hard earned money because of the 'intentionally made highly attractive all sorts of things!'Sometimes i wish i had all the money in the world and could buy everything i could lay my hands on! There's always a constant battle between the 'sane' you who wants to spend money wisely, and 'compulsive shopper' inside you who wants to spend all the money on various kind of indulgences. This craving of mine leads me to think the kinda materialistic person (according to others) iam. But for me its the real happiness.

Its like any other happiness  that you experience when you get a good news or something really amazing happens to you. I guess this only a person like me can understand who shares the same passion as mine.

P.S : i had written the post long time back, when i was in USA .It has been 18 days that iam in India. So today i finally thought of posting this.

A Night at the Clubhouse..

Last night was a different experience for me.It was the first time i hung out with Americans.Until now my company on weekends would only be Aneesh,Akhil,Noopur and Ish so i felt at home with my own folks.It was a new kinda experience talking to people with such diverse and most imperatively interesting backgrounds.Talking of backgrounds i am very familiar with the kind of messed up families exist and issues that could only be seen or heard through television back in India but trust me its overwhelming when you hear those stories from the horse's mouth itself!

I like to call myself a very broad minded individual who respects all kind of people without being judgemental about their past or present.I did the same while hearing the life story(in brief) of a girl i met last night.She is a pleasant Dominican republic girl who is new to our company and from what i understood she has rational thoughts and is like what a 27 yr old responsible girl should be.Our initial confab gradually turned into a heart to heart exchange of emotions that we women go through.I had heard rumours about her that she is a gay woman(I would rather not call her lesbian or dyke because i feel those words are degrading) but that
never really was a reason i would feel uncomfortable around her.I was wondering that when she would unveil that part of her life.She started out by telling me why she moved from New York city(Manhattan)to Haverhill( a small ugly town in Massachusetts) and as she was narrating her story i realized that this girl had gone through a great deal.She moved here because her half sister asked her help to get back on from her messed up life,she had about 20 half sister and brother which indicates what a player her father is! She has a nine year old daughter called Destiny(she named her this because she was her destiny) whom she had when she was just eighteen.She had gone through a divorce at the age of twenty.She was in love with a woman for four years which she still thinks she does.And last but not the least she is in a live-in relationship with a woman,in which she is suffocated and wants space.By the end of it all i was appalled,i had no words and nothing to preach or advice because i have always been this Agony aunt of sorts who had most viable solutions to the most labyrinth of situations.But here i found myself in a unique state leaving me speechless.

The party ended and we came back home tired only waiting to crash on the bed but my mind still contemplating the contrasting cultures of the two countries and how people and their lives differ from each other.Somewhere having pity at people like her who have not seen what parental care and love means.It made me rethink how much i should respect the fact that i have parents who gave me the best they could.I hold immense regard for her for being strong all this while.She fell and stood up again only to emerge as a stronger individual and a great mother.

I fell in love with a Vampire

Last week was the usual office - home routine and had nothing that could excite me.I basically belong to that set of people who seek any kind of exhilaration to live life everyday.Not that i demand a great deal, tiny little things bring me to life and one out of those kicks subsumes watching movies.So on one of those cold lazy evenings before catching some Z's,i saw a movie which i wanted to see since ages.Though it makes me wonder as to why i was craving to watch this movie because the ratings of the movie were so-so also the verbal reviews were not inspiring enough.Nonetheless,i went ahead to satisfy my want to see 'Twilight'.It was a regular Hollywood flick with a character which made me go weak in the knees.Edward Cullen is a Vampire to die for.His character is unreal for today's world where 'Love' has lost its true meaning or i shall say doesn't exist or even if it exists then its lost somewhere amidst the practical ways of life.People who still believe in this sacred feeling and have seen this movie will concur with what I am trying to say here.For me God and Love share the same pedestal of respect in my heart and i have always wanted to have a man like Edward Cullen who could love me the way he loves Bella in the movie.Apart from the strikingly good looks what attracted me the most was the child like innocence in his feelings towards the girl and him being instinctively protective of his Ladylove and how he overcomes his natural thirst for human blood.The way i have inferred 'LOVE' is surreal, parallel to the pragmatic world,where two souls discover a path to ultimately become One.Edward Cullen has once again strengthened my belief in the kind of Love i have had my faith in, all my life.My ideas will give people a chance to have a good laugh but this is something i shall believe in forever.

Somehow i just don't understand this specifically 'Indian tradition' of marriage where the girl has to marry a suitable match and start living with an entire new family.I too belong to the same league of girls whose marriage is arranged by her parents.I went in for such an alliance only to fulfill my parent's wish and bestow them with their well deserved happiness.I would not call myself as a firm believer of the institution of marriage but Yes! i totally respect it.My complain is with the idea of sending away the 'girl' and why only the girl to adjust into a whole new atmosphere with people she barely knows! Adjustment and Compromise are synonymous to the M word.Its a whole new birth as it is called by the seniors of the family.I am very happy with my married life but what agitates me is that the progress of the modern era will be useless if the base of it is phony.This sole tradition proves a woman inferior to a man where she is the one who has to lose everything on her part and gracefully accept what's coming her way. Its just a thought that makes me umbrageous and makes me want to have puissance to revolutionise this backward system.

THE WEEKEND THAT WAS

Its 3:30 in the afternoon and iam at work on a weekend! That's a reverberation of being a businessman's wife.My head is at the verge of exploding for which i blame the ambrosial pomegranate shots that cute Jamie boy served me last nite.We went to Punjab(indian restaurant)to get some drinks before going out to watch DELHI 6.The movie is basically targetting NRIs who come back to their roots and then shit happens n ultimately things get alright.The typical hindi masala movie.The funniest part was the usage of Monkey Man incident that happened in Delhi few years back.The only remarkable thing in the movie is how the standpat yet colourful old delhi has been captured and splashed over the 70 mm screen.I being a resident of America now, felt desirous of going back to my hometown to experience the warmth of Delhi.Boston is cold and dry in every sense.The weather,the people,the food ,Everything is so underspiced(that's what i call it, there is no such word in the dictionary) unlike India where people, food and weather are extremely Hot! i mean literally!Till now iam enjoying exploring the contrasting cultures of both countries but i wonder ultimately where i want to settle down, amongst my own phratry or choose to live as an expatriate?

The weekend is over and iam again back to the backroom.Trying to complete my new post. So thought of appreciating how Slumdog Millionaire won 8 oscars out of total 10 nominations, of which one it lost to its own other nomination in the 'Best original score' category. So practically SM only lost one award.It was a proud moment but it would have been more gallant if this movie was made by an Indian director and then got acclaim to such an extent.Commendable was A.R Rahman's performance and the two lines that truly stole the show "all my life i had an option to choose between Love and Hate, i chose Love and iam here."After this i have a lot of respect for this humble and quiet man who speaks a thousand words through his supercharged music.A lot of people might say that we don't need Oscars to recognize our work but i feel Oscars is a platform where intelligent cinema is appreciated and honoured.Though i have a little doubt about the authenticity of the judging panel which contradicts my statement but its just an opinion from a person who likes to watch good cinema, language no bar!

Eyasha

I was randomly searching Google to find an appropriate display name for my blog and i finally found this beautiful name 'EYASHA'
More than the name i thought the picture of this Goddess of Peace and Harmony was pulchritudinous.Most of the people would name their blogs reflecting their own characteristics but somehow this whole aura around this goddess appealed to me to such an extent that i chose this as my Blog name.
So iam posting an article i read online about this totally mesmerising beauty.

EYASHA, SANTHARIAN GODDESS OF PEACE

Goddess of the Peace and Unity, of Harmony, Tranquility and Contentment. Furthermore She is known as the Goddess of Friendship, Hearth and Hospitality, representing the patron saint for all innkeepers throughout Santharian lands. In older texts She is also often refered to as the "Uniter" or - maybe surprisingly here - even as the "Sleeper", who makes differences forgotten by reminding the beings of their transitory nature by letting them take part in an universal view on things. Nevertheless, Eyasha should not be taken for the elven High Goddess, Avá the Beautiful, the "Dreamer", the source of all things existing as the elves believe.

Picture description: Eyasha, Goddes of Peace, Harmony and Contentment. Image drawn by Enayla.
Eyasha is one of the Twelve Gods or High Spirits (Aeolía) who sprang from the Dream of Avá the Beautiful according to the elven myth as related in the Cárpa'dosía. Together with Grothar (God of Weather) and Nehtor (God of Healing) Eyasha is one of the three Gods dedicated to the element of Wind. The sixth month of the Santharian Calendar, the Month of the Rising Sun (elvish: Dál'Injèrá) is dedicated to Eyasha solely.Mythology. As Eyasha was among the first three Gods who sprang from the Thoughts of Avá and is of the element of Wind She is very close to the High Goddess. Thus She retained the idea of the One that all things existing should be shining from their inner beauty and that harmony was the way all creatures and things throughout the world should seek. This was what Eyasha from the Beginning of Time tried to put into the hearts of the Children and even as Urtengor shaped the lands She worked with him on the Gardens of Bliss - until the other Gods, mainly Etherus and Queprur, joined their powers in order to corrupt these achievements. Since this time Eyasha's intentions are to undo the deeds of these two opponents, though She would never confront them Herself. Eyasha's ways are soft and tender, decent and subdued to the becoming of time, while Etherus' and Queprur's actions often are instant and destructive.However, Eyasha's main foe is the main God of Earth, Armeros, Master of Battles and Lover of War, who taught all things living the contradictions of the elements and their duty in reality to fight the celestial ideas of harmony and balance openly. To deal with Armeros, the most powerful of all Gods, Eyasha is said to have befriended Arvins, the God of the Hunt, who knows the necessity of death succeeding life, but also of life succeeding death, in the renewal of the circle of being.Importance. Eyasha is one of the most common Gods one will encounter in various places throughout Santharia, and She is worshipped by the elves as well as the humans as one of the most important Gods in both races pantheon, and so Eyasha is very often mentioned as the first Goddess in many common prayers. While elves see Her as the main force in order to re-establish the cosomological peace (an impossible but necessary task as the elves interpret Her role), humans see in Eyasha mainly the Goddess of Hearth and Hospitality. At most inns and taverns you'll find dried clover-shaped trinity herbs, the sign of Eyasha, near the entrance. This should on the one hand bless the inn and it's residents and on the other hand show all passers-by that they are always welcomed.Another gesture towards the Goddess is the fact that all hearths which can be found in public buildings are consecrated to Her. At Eyasha's Day on the last day of the Month of the Rising Sun people are used to light a fire in every private home for the Goddess. They finally kindle a candle with this fire, and try to keep the flame alight for at least a fortnight by kindling new candles day by day. If the sacred flame goes out during these days it is said that the winds of Eyasha were forced by Armeros and that what happened to the flame will happen during the next year within the family where the flame was harboured.The biggest temple of Eyasha is located in the town of Caelum, at the Bay of Skies near Ximax. It is often visited by travellers on their way to or from the town of mages, because a huge inn is attached to it, the "Weary Traveller".Symbols/Colors. The symbolic animal of the God of the Peace is the dove and her typical plant is the already mentioned trinity herb. Both are white in color, which is also the color of peace. The trinity is a shade-loving plant with tri-furcated leaves and tiny bell-shaped white flowers, which are often used to decorate homes at celebration days. The trinity also serves several healing purposes.
Prayers. Among the prayers worshipping Eyasha, the Goddess of Peace and Contentment, is the following:
QUIET NIGHT by Lucirina Telor Vevan
Quiet night,
I feel you,
Close to my heart, silent.
Hidden are you,
In the darkness,
Yet your hand is resting on mine.
Calm is the dark,
Wind is sleeping,
Yet I know you are with me,
Guiding from chaos,
And fear.
Your voice soft in my soul.
Soothing touch.
You give me.
Beauty at sleep.
Softly smiling,
In your dreams,
You teach me contentment.
Eyasha,
Willow whisper
Your name in the night.
As you watch,
And care,
For us, your children.

So after getting inspired by the various blogs on blogspot.com and also a desire to be like Carrie Bradshaw of 'Sex and the City', I finally decided to start a blog of my own.The first thing was to think what i want to start writing about.I thought of various topics but the most obvious choice to start with was my newly acquired 'Married' status.I am sure a lot of single people are extremely afraid of the idea of marriage, i too was! Trust me i was not sure of getting married even on my wedding day! No one ever is! I am not going to preach anyone about the positives or negatives of being married but its worth giving a shot at the right time(read as when one feels the need of settling down).This blog will be about how i view the world around me,my life and my candid opinions on various issues of importance { importance to me :) }

4:22 p.m

I am at the Arlington store sitting in the back room which is now my work space. I don't want to even describe how it looks like because I am sure i will not be able to find a word in the dictionary to state how awfully messy the backroom is! All varieties of mobile phones,chargers,batteries,cases,trash..yes you read that correct variety of trash including general,discarded phone,wires,mails etc. etc. I have realized though that its difficult to maintain cleanliness in the backroom because so many shipments come everyday and the boxes keep getting collected and then we have a few lazy ass employees who don't want to even try cleaning it.So the reason i am sitting here is i am trying to understand the challenging and highly competitive wireless business which i feel is a lot more arduous for a creative person like me.Iam a total fashion person who loves to dress up in the best brands,wants only diamonds for jewellery,wears only branded shades,knows how to
do the right make up and thinks that french manicure is classy! and here I am stuck in a place where Iam surrounded by eeewww electronic stuff.Well understanding the business is not the only thing that's challenging in my life,trying to learn the American ways too is a pain.It was way too easy to live in India where one has the luxury of domestic help and an atmosphere which feels like your own.

10:34 p.m

I am sitting in my room feeling nostalgic.Being married,staying away from family and friends in a new country is a little too much to handle.I have surpassed all the limits of being emotionally stable.Essentially, i miss 'my before marriage daily routine' which practically had everything that i would have loved to do for the rest of my life! Eating out,chilling with friends,sleeping late, waking up even later,shopping,going to the movies..almost everything! But i have also learnt to flawlessly handle the changes that life throws at me and i am proud of myself.So now i wake up to a beautiful morning everyday wondering what life has new in store for me.